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and I was the one who talked her into staying and trying to work things out. When summer came I was scheduled to go on a family vacation on which I would have very little cell or internet service. We had talked about how much we had come to mean to each other and how much we were going to miss the other. While on the trip the separation was unbearable. When I was able to get service of any kind I would spend it talking to her. Toward the end of the trip she called me and after an hour was able to get me to admit that I was having more than friendly feelings for me. She was also feeling the same way. After I was back it only took two weeks of being on the phone all the time for us to say ‘I love you’. We made a plan to meet up on neutral ground to see if what we were feeling was real. It was. I was head over hills in love with my best friend and she felt the same way. A few weeks later she came to spend a week with me and things were perfect. There was talk of her leaving and moving in with me. When she left I was lost all I wanted was to have her with me. Before anything happened between us we had planned for me to spend a week at their house and again, even though we had to play things off, they were still perfect. When I left I couldn’t even hug her because I knew I was leaving my heart with her. A month after that the ‘wife’ ended things saying that she wasn’t in love with her any more, this threw her into a tail spin. That was 3 months ago. We have gone back and forth over the course of those months with her even spending 2 weeks at my house, and I even took her home to meet my family. During that time there were breaks between us with her telling me that she was in a bad place and for her to deal with everything she didn’t have room to think about me. Somehow we would always end up together though. Now she has closed herself off from me and everyone else in her life, tired to kill herself and told me that her ‘wife’ would always have her heart and that there could never be an ‘us’ and even if she makes it through this she is sure she never wants to have a relationship again. I know I should have never gotten involved with her and my heartache is my own fault but I always say you can’t help who you fall in love with. Now that I have laid all my dirty laundry out for the world to see, does anyone have any advice?